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This year's holy week is more than just eating less for penitence and repentance. 2012 and 2013 has been a topsy-turvy journey for me, not even a roller coaster could describe how complicated everything had been which is why this holy week, I've decided to go on a reflection of life and hoping to get things right into place.
Aside from the fasting I've started since last week, I also would want to think about things that could affect my future. I bet that after lent, I would be encountering a lot of major decision making and I am deeply praying for the Lord to guide me in all my decisions in life.
I admit, I have been weak and my faith has been tested since after graduation, and it had led to different bad scenarios which I, myself have not even imagined to happen. But even until now, there are still instances where I question my faith and ask God why everything has been happening. I know I have no right to ask Him, but despite this, He still managed to slowly give out answers through different realizations.
One thing I have learned through this whole journey is that there is no such thing as a perfect life. I might have been wrong before thinking that my whole life was too perfect and that everything I want could be easily at reach. But reality check, it really isn't; third quarter of 2012 was a twist which knocked me off to think of such realization.
And it was that realization which changed my whole life and how I view things differently. It made me stronger and realize the values of even such small things in life. Although, hatred is still present but acceptance has slowly drowned that ill feeling.
Now, here's a new version of me after a course of trials, molded by Him to become unafraid of the evil world. Though I am still hoping for Him to guide me in all the paths I will be taking, especially on this upcoming dilemma I will be facing by the end of Lent. This time, I promise that I will be doing everything ad majorem dei gloriam, for the greater glory of God.
